001. Out of the bubble
Let me begin with a little something about my past so you can understand me better.
Over here, almost all the schools have kinder garden, school and high school, all in one place, and my parents sent me to one of the most strict schools in the city. We wear uniforms and we had to have a very clean image (i went to the principal's office several times because my teachers had a problem with my "semi-long" hair). The reason i'm telling you this is because i spent 13 years of my life over there so i kinda learn how to stay out of troubles.
I always hang out with the same people, we were a big group of really good friends. It had a good high school experience.
A couple of months after i turn 17 years old, i left my family to go to college in another city. I was really excited! I was going to share an apartment with two other guys: John (18) and Max (21) -those aren't their real names, but very close!-.
My first night living there, Max introduced me to his girlfriend and Josh (18) his friend. When i saw Josh, i swear i hear "danger! danger!" in my head. He looked like a trouble maker, with tatoos and piercings. He spent a lot of time in our apartment, so it was inevitable for me to talk to him. Turns out we had a lot of things in common, we were born in the same place and even went to the same high school!. We became best friends on my first week over there.
College is all about new experiences (that's what people say), i honestly felt like i spent my life in a bubble and suddenly i was in some kind of different world. I was having an amazing time! Everybody in the apartment wanted me to hang out with them and their friends but most of the time i went out with Josh. And in less than a month, i started to have feelings for him, it was so confusing to me because i never felt something like that for a boy, i didn't know i was gay.
I was scare to talk about it with anyone because, what if they dont like me anymore? what if i had to move out or something like that? I had to keep it to myself.
It was hard for me, specially when i had to help him with his girlfriends. One time he was having sex with a girl in Max's bedroom and his real girlfriend showed up. I had to go out with her while Josh got dressed and kick the other girl from the apartment. It was kinda painful for me, and his girlfriend never knew he was cheating on her.
I was confuse, i felt alone. And to make things worst, my evil grandmother threw me a curve ball...
E.G.: you have another sister.
Far away from home and the friends i grew up with, i had to deal with my feelings, my sexual identity crisis, the news about a half-sister and at the same time trying to keep good grades at school. All that in just one month.
I went from an easy-going kind of life, to something that i've only seen before on tv.
Over here, almost all the schools have kinder garden, school and high school, all in one place, and my parents sent me to one of the most strict schools in the city. We wear uniforms and we had to have a very clean image (i went to the principal's office several times because my teachers had a problem with my "semi-long" hair). The reason i'm telling you this is because i spent 13 years of my life over there so i kinda learn how to stay out of troubles.
I always hang out with the same people, we were a big group of really good friends. It had a good high school experience.
A couple of months after i turn 17 years old, i left my family to go to college in another city. I was really excited! I was going to share an apartment with two other guys: John (18) and Max (21) -those aren't their real names, but very close!-.
My first night living there, Max introduced me to his girlfriend and Josh (18) his friend. When i saw Josh, i swear i hear "danger! danger!" in my head. He looked like a trouble maker, with tatoos and piercings. He spent a lot of time in our apartment, so it was inevitable for me to talk to him. Turns out we had a lot of things in common, we were born in the same place and even went to the same high school!. We became best friends on my first week over there.
College is all about new experiences (that's what people say), i honestly felt like i spent my life in a bubble and suddenly i was in some kind of different world. I was having an amazing time! Everybody in the apartment wanted me to hang out with them and their friends but most of the time i went out with Josh. And in less than a month, i started to have feelings for him, it was so confusing to me because i never felt something like that for a boy, i didn't know i was gay.
I was scare to talk about it with anyone because, what if they dont like me anymore? what if i had to move out or something like that? I had to keep it to myself.
It was hard for me, specially when i had to help him with his girlfriends. One time he was having sex with a girl in Max's bedroom and his real girlfriend showed up. I had to go out with her while Josh got dressed and kick the other girl from the apartment. It was kinda painful for me, and his girlfriend never knew he was cheating on her.
I was confuse, i felt alone. And to make things worst, my evil grandmother threw me a curve ball...
E.G.: you have another sister.
Far away from home and the friends i grew up with, i had to deal with my feelings, my sexual identity crisis, the news about a half-sister and at the same time trying to keep good grades at school. All that in just one month.
I went from an easy-going kind of life, to something that i've only seen before on tv.
posted by J (Me) at
5:54 PM
1 Comments:
Life is full of surprises, isn't it? If I were suddenly told that I had a half-sister somewhere, I don't know how I would react.
Josh sounds like a normal, confused boy who is trying to prove that he is a man. Although you feel things for him, be careful. The "loves" of our lives are not always the people we wish they would be.
Good luck on this blog. You are an interesting writer and you are expressing yourself very well.
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